Baby thoughts
Today the baby and I have been together for 17 weeks - that’s 4 months down!
I am still feeling just faint, occasional kicks, mostly in the evening after an imprudent cup of coffee and some dessert.
My nausea is almost entirely gone if I am careful to eat regularly. I still have a lot of lingering first-trimester fatigue.
Although I am seriously hesitant to make a firm guess, I can’t shake the feeling that this baby is a boy. My morning sickness was milder than with the girls and was gone sooner. I am very tired. And I really want another boy to run around with The Boy. I know that’s just wishful thinking, but consider this:
With all of our girls, I was ready to have girls. I was perfectly content to have a houseful of girls and couldn’t imagine what it would be like to have a boy. A boy sounded like a small, foreign sort of creature that would require an entirely new set of skills that I didn’t possess. Only once did I feel that a pregnancy was somewhat different and suspect that it might be a boy. I was quietly relieved when a new little girl appeared.
When friends and family had boys, I politely admired them but never really longed for one of my own. I only wished for a boy in the most theoretical sort of way: I knew that hubby really wanted a son and I understood that a man needs a son, so I wished for him to have one. Of course, I realized that I would get a son as part of the deal if God should grant that request of ours. I was OK with that and assumed that maternal instinct would kick in at the appropriate time. In the meantime, boys were weird and noisy and I was thoroughly content to keep bearing girls.
When my sister’s boy was born in June, he was just a boy. But a few months later we got together again, and something was different. I looked at my sister’s boy, and he was a little man - a small image of his father, with his dad’s eyes and a manly little jaw. He was precious. He won my heart and for the first time ever, I thought to myself, “I do want a boy! I want a little man-child.”
As it turned out, I was already pregnant and didn’t yet know it. Apparently those maternal instincts work quickly. I had a quiet suspicion throughout the pregnancy that this might - just might - be that elusive boy we had been waiting for. 8 1/2 months later, we had our little man-child and I greeted him without a moment’s doubt or hesitation.
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Kim~
you know, I thought I was the only mom who had ever thought that way. I’m so relieved to know that you also have those thoughts. i’ve been very content with my girls, for the last 6 of my children have been girls. I haven’t wanted a boy yet, despite the fact that my husband is seriously, earnestly, daily praying for twin boys. Of course, I love my son so much, but he is not your typical boy. He is very mellow, very helpful, very intelligent and quiet, and I must confess that part of my fear of getting a boy is NOT getting another Russell…..what are the odds of that??? So I admit, with the birth of each girl, to a quiet feeling of relief and satisfaction, because after all, girls are what I know!
I’m ever so tired also. I sleep a lot. I’m feeling movement. Only about 7 more months to go!
I understand your thoughts and feelings.
Leanne in Longview WA
I have exactly those same thoughts and feelings, except vice versa. I have four boys and right now would be overjoyed to have 20 more boys. I really don’t know what a girl would be like and don’t know if I want any. I can’t imagine kissing and loving on girls the same way that I do with my little “boyfriends”. I don’t know if I would feel as special to a girl as I do with my boys. And I don’t know how to change their diapers! LOL
I’m sure God will prepare my heart and my instincts at the right time just as he did for you. But for now I’ll be content to answer all those, “Are you going to try for a girl?” comments form strangers with, “Nah, but maybe a few more boys!”
Well, you have a horde of girls…maybe God is going to give you a horde of boys.
I also have gradually become content with the idea of having all of one gender (boys in my case). I still sometimes wish for a girl but wouldn’t be that disappointed if I don’t get one.
Kim,
You stated your feelings beautifully. I always knew my first would be a boy. When my second pregnancy was vastly different and we couldn’t see whether or not we would have a boy or a girl during the sonogram, I kept telling myself it was likely another boy. And I was very content with that. What a surprise to meet my sweet daughter! With every subsequent pregnancy, I have suspected, long before sonograms could show it, we were having boys. I love boys, and I feel I was born to be the mother of boys. However, I am ever grateful for the priveledge of raising my daughter as well. Thanks for sharing.
I am in the same boat as you!
I have four girls and am hoping and tirelessly praying that this baby is a boy! 
I’m 16 weeks, one week behind you, and we’ll find out on the 30th if it’s a boy! I’m so excited! I pray we both get our little boys! 
I know you are so excited. When I was little, I remember having many sleepless nights waiting on the arrival of Christmas day. Waiting to find out what you are having and then seeing that little face is much like that feeling. I’m excited for you as you wait on your precious new little one.
Blessings!
Tracy
I know I am a little late, but congratulation on the pregnancy!
Best of luck to you!
After 1 boy who is now 16 and 4 girls in a row, I am still content to have more girls as well. My husband would really love to have a son, but seems very content to be swimming in the estrogen ocean a little longer. Since our littlest girl is only 6 months old, I won’t be producing anything any time soon! Of course, I firmly believe God has a wonderful sense of humor and His timing is perfect - He might just surprise us!
I don’t know if I’ve ever commented before, but I read your blog often and I’ve bought Bible pages.
I’m my parent’s only daughter followed by 4 (3 living) sons. The first time I was pg, I so wanted a little boy! I spent months preparing myself for a little girl, and then was over-the-moon on d-day to discover I’d carried a little boy all along!
Then comes pregnancy number two. EVERYONE thinks I’m wanting a girl. Dh sorta wants a girl. I can’t shake the image of two little boys chasing each other through the house - but I hype myself for a girl.
Enter Elijah!
Over the last few months, I’ve had happen *exactly* what you describe!!! Suddenly I see in a little girl just as much potential as I do little boys. I’d call it weird, but I think it’s really a God thing.
Of course, I’d still like to have a small army of boys but now I think I’d like a few girls thrown in, too!
Maybe our next few will be girls.
~Ashley~
What a sweet post. I share your sentiments completely!
I really wanted a boy our first time around, convinced it was a boy. I was shocked at 20 weeks to discover that he was a SHE. Now, with pregnancy #2, I can’t imagine having a boy, although I do wish for one… like you, for hubby’s sake.
Next Wednesday we hope to find out whether Livvie will have a brother or a sissy! Best wishes on your pregnancy.
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