Ready or not?

My present state of contentment keeps making me doubt myself. Am I near labor and just not psychologically ready? I have always loudly proclaimed that the miseries of the third trimester are God’s gracious way of making mothers ready and eager to face the pains of labor. But if I’m not miserable, that leaves two possibilities: either I’m not near labor, or I am near labor, and I’m just not ready. Gulp.

I think I’m ready. I don’t feel fearful. I get butterflies in my stomach when I think about labor and delivery, but that’s nothing unusual. I can always make myself feel apprehensive about labor if I dwell on what’s to come. Β  But mostly I’m just eager to have it behind me rather than before me, and to have a wriggling little babe in my arms rather than under my ribs and on top of my bladder. I’m eager to be done with it, but not in great enough physical discomfort to really, really long for it yet.

I’m just not used to feeling well-rested and generally pain-free at this point. It’s really throwing off all of my well-established psychological markers. Will this baby arrive in 3 days or 3 weeks?

Oh, the suspense. Is it killing you too?

Comments

  1. Angela H. says:

    ok, Kim…..where are you??? πŸ™‚ Check in with all of us and let us how you are.

    Angela

  2. Uh, yeah, the suspense is killing me! I’m on vacation and logged on just to check on you!!! Best of luck to you and I’ll check back as often as possible! πŸ™‚

  3. Yes, I’m ready for you to have that baby! Once you have yours then we can concentrate on me. πŸ˜‰ I’m 35 weeks today.

  4. Kim, since you have seven children and this is no new thing to you, you are more than ready, God is indeed gracious and His face is smiling down upon you and THAT is why you aren’t miserable… well that’s my story/theory and I’m sticking to it!

  5. Hang in there Kim. God’s got it all worked out. You’ll be ready when it happens. Prayers for peace headed your way.

  6. I know exactly where you’re coming from. This last pregnancy of mine was the easiest (except for that bothersome all day every day “morning” sickness that lasted until 16 weeks). I never felt huge, didn’t experience the intense pelvic pain ( though it bothered me a little), and had energy to get a lot done. I also kept thinking about how I could NOT be in labor, and then BE in labor in an hour – ’cause ya never know when its going to start. Keeps you on your toes with every little twinge. I’m praying that you’ll have peace – no matter when the Lord has planned your baby’s birth – 3 hours, 3 days or 3 weeks from now.

  7. Homemakerang says:

    Sometimes i think a lot of it can be in the mind. on the last. i was procrastinating getting stuff ready. i finally after a long nap and huge feet thought, i guess it would be a good idea to wash up some baby stuff and put a clean crib sheet on… 5 hours later my water broke, then 2 hours latter, a baby… it could literally be only hours away until you are holding that babe. in the meantime i am thinking (thats why i checked here first thing this AM) and PRAYING! i feel your apprehension about the inevitable as it is still fresh in my mind… does that ever go away? its over so fast. cant wait to hear the good news! xoxoxox

  8. Happy Mom says:

    Well, it is still a few days until Thursday…..:-)

  9. I feel your “pain”. I was (and still am) still nursing my 12 month old (now almost 21 month old) when I got pregnant so my due date is just an estimate. It’s supposedly 2 weeks from tomorrow. I am measuring about 38 so hopefully the due date is good. This is my first homebirth so I am a little apprehensive about that but mostly just excited (ignorance is bliss right). I know the Lord led me to this so I have peace but I am soooo ready to give birth. I pray each day that today will the day.

  10. Margaret says:

    Yes it’s killing me! C’mon baby!! :p

    You are very blessed to have a pain-free, mostly stress-free end of pregnancy. I hope that’s a portent of how the birth will go. Wouldn’t that be cool, pain-free birth?. πŸ™‚

  11. Sounds like we may be due right around the same time! I’ll have to keep checking back to see who delivers first! Ha! I am SOOOO ready to be done! (I am a friend of Kim Cunningham’s, btw. Love your blog! You are a great writer!)

  12. Sure, rub it in. As I sit here sweating from the heat, afraid to move because of my pelvic pain and recovering from my emotional outburst earlier. πŸ˜› I’m right there with you though, usually by this time I’ve either had the baby, or am very close to delivering and now I’m feeling like it could be several more weeks. I’m not due for another 5+ weeks and sometimes the thought of going that much longer is too much. I can’t wait to have this baby in my arms.

  13. quit taking your Supermom’s ~ maybe then, you’ll feel appropriately exhausted & thus – ready πŸ™‚

  14. Angela H. says:

    Amen. This is exactly how I feel right now. I totally agree with this statement: I can always make myself feel apprehensive about labor if I dwell on what’s to come. Maybe you are right about God’s gracious way of making us mothers ready to face labor pains also. I had never really thought about it that way before. Very good thought……and, yes, the suspense is killing me too. I stop by your blog like 5-6 times per day….pretty bad, huh? I had to mow the lawn today and kept thinking about checking your blog. πŸ™‚

    Take care,
    Angela

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