I hate hormones. Well, not entirely. They certainly keep life interesting, but I hate it when I feel like I’m at their mercy – for instance, the 6 weeks months years after giving birth.
Last week, I almost missed breakfast. The kids and I were getting ready to leave the house one morning and they misunderstood when I told them to take the baby out [of the bedroom]. They thought I meant to take her out [of the house] so of course they all went out to the van and buckled down for the drive.
I hadn’t eaten breakfast yet, but I didn’t know what to do. It really was time to leave, but we weren’t on a hard schedule. I wasn’t really hungry, but I suspected I would regret it later if I skipped breakfast now.
I had time to eat if I chose to. But I was tortured by indecision. Should I unload all the children? Should I make them wait in the van while I ate? Should I just stop and buy fast food to eat on the way? But then I would have ovarian guilt if I ate in front of them, and I certainly didn’t want to buy everyone fast food.
And now I was back to skipping breakfast entirely. It seemed like the easiest option at the time, but I was scared. I felt fine; I would probably continue to feel fine if I didn’t eat – except that I could already feel myself fighting ridiculous tears, and I knew I wouldn’t fare well in that battle if I had an empty stomach.
In the end, I fought back the tears and grabbed a slice of bread with peanut butter and a glass of milk for the road. When I arrived at my destination, I found free coffee, muffins, doughnuts, and more. Why do I let myself worry? God has things under control.
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with you on that one, girl!
I have friends who truly are unaffected by hormones & it just baffles me! Even my breastfeeding babies seem affected by hormones coming through my milk (my cycles start up again at 3 months, no matter what. grr) I always thought perhaps I was imagining it, or the babies were just responding to my stress levels or something. With my current nursling, there is no doubt about it! They start affecting HER before I even realize what ‘time’ it is…..
well, at least you have chocolate…. Wait ~ you didn’t eat it all already, did you?!
Jesus bless you… you are NOT alone! Love you friend!
Oh, I can relate! Agony! And God shows me the same lesson every time…
I actually came to your blog today after giving birth to my fourth baby yesterday morning (the 18th) at 3:44 am… and guess what? I am having hardly NO PAIN with uterine contractions and am FLOORED and amazed and thankful! I just wanted to thank you for that liquid calcium post you wrote; a friend emailed me the link to it a week or so ago, and I thought I would try it. I’ll try anything because with my first 3 I have had horrible, horrible after birth pains for the first 24-48 hours – so much worse than labor!
So THANK YOU! I thank God He sent me that information. I am convinced that stuff has helped!
I am so right there with you. Except my hormones are the opposite of yours I cry all the time. I just can’t help it. I really think we are getting our boy because I have never been like this in any of my pregnancies.
The past 9 weeks, I have become very acquainted with how hormones affect me. I am expecting our first, and I am so thankful to have a patient, loving husband…I am all over the place emotionally. One minute I’ll be normal, then bawling, then irritated! I really need to get it under control better, because I can’t be a basket case for 9 whole months! (well, I guess I have less than 7 left now–how time flies!)