I think I’ve mentioned before that I tend to go into labor when I feel safe and relaxed – when all my ducks are in a row.
I know this is a very common phenomenon. My various midwives over the years have agreed, and that has been my mom’s experience too. Most of us simply don’t go into labor when we have too much hanging over us. House guests, outside obligations, stress and fear, ovarian guilt…all seem to contribute to procrastination when it comes to labor and delivery.
When this weekend began, we still had 7 of our 8 Golden Retriever pups for sale. I had really been hoping to sell more of them before the baby arrived. We also had 2 social engagements for today, and one more invitation that we had to decline.
This morning, we said goodbye to 3 pups and we have received deposits on 2 more. That leaves us with just 2 pups to sell! Can you hear my huge sigh of relief?
After selling puppies all morning, we spent the afternoon with my extended family, and the evening catching up with friends from 20 years ago. Our guests just left, and the house is nearly quiet. I was looking forward to both events, but am also breathing another sigh of relief because my calendar is now cleared for the foreseeable future.
This was it. I have nothing else but church and a tentative prenatal checkup a week from Monday – and that appointment is so tentative that we didn’t even choose a time. My midwife and I really expect to see each other before then.
My whole point is…I’m holding out hope for a Memorial Day baby. I really expect (or did expect) to wait until next weekend, but Monday is looking better and better. My ducks are in a row. My breathing is calm and relaxed. There are far less puppies pooping on my deck, where I intend to give birth. My false labor is picking up and slowly, gradually becoming more consistent. If I don’t allow myself to get too tied up in the date and create a false sense of tension, I feel like it could happen that soon.
Then again, maybe it’s wishful thinking. Maybe I will wait until next weekend and our pattern will be ruined. That’s OK too. No stress. I’m relaxed. I’m cool.