I love milestones, and 13 weeks is definitely a milestone! It’s refreshing to know that I’m starting a new trimester. I’m hopeful that morning sickness will continue to fade, and can’t wait to see my belly – and the baby – begin to grow in earnest.
I haven’t felt that way with every pregnancy; sometimes I’m reluctant to lose my waistline (yet again), but knowing that every time is ever more likely to be the last makes me look at it differently. Children are always a blessing, but somehow I find it easier to keep that in mind as I near the end of my childbearing years.
While I’m excited at beginning a new trimester, I’m quietly terrified of the thought of labor in a mere 27 weeks. My last labor was exciting but relatively fast, especially for my first posterior baby. Nonetheless I’m SO not ready to think about labor again. My solution: I don’t think about it. I know from experience that I’ll be ready when the time comes, so in the meantime I live in denial. To paraphrase Matthew 6:31 roughly,
Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘How shall we get through labor again?’…
No, fretting and worrying will not subtract one hour from labor. There are better things to focus on.
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about [27 weeks from now], for [October 17] will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. ~Matthew 6:33-34
So I walk around in a curious mixture of bliss and nausea, waiting to feel the first flutterings, oblivious to the fact that in 6 months I’ll be wondering what was I thinking? I can’t do this!!!
Over the past week, I logged everything I ate for 5 days for my midwife. It was a good chance to take a real look at my diet. I’m probably not eating quite enough because of the nausea but I’m maintaining my starting weight, which is very good for me since I usually lose about 10 lbs. in my first trimester. I’m no health nut, but I think my diet is generally healthy and balanced. I’m curious to see if my midwife agrees next time I see her.
I’m also not doing much exercise yet because of the nausea. Wait – who am I fooling? I’m not doing any exercise, unless you count staring mournfully into the fridge and walking away because the sight and smell of all that food is more nauseating than an empty stomach. However, I am trying to remember to do 100 squats/day because I can do them in small sets without getting sick and I hear they are wonderful for a variety of reasons, some of which apply to everyone and some of which apply specifically to pregnant women. I have yet to remember to do more than 30, but I’m full of good intentions. I just need someone to remind me.
Does anyone want to join me in 100 squats/day? I could use some accountability!
The biggest excitement this week: a friend unexpectedly loaned me a fetal doppler! We can listen to the baby’s heartbeat at home any time we want! How cool is that? We tried to make a recording, but baby wasn’t very cooperative. I only found the baby’s heartbeat once today, and it was competing with my own. We could hear it easily, but it was difficult to separate the two on our recording. Maybe we’ll have a recording next week!
- Baby is about 3″ long and weighs 1 oz.
- Baby can suck thumb, kick, and flex arms.
- Bone is beginning to replace cartilage and the ribs are appearing.
- Baby’s unique fingerprints are already in place.
Updates? I love hearing updates from others! And I’m serious: does anyone want to do 100 squats/day for the rest of April? Or the next 30 days? Or 27 weeks?