Is it weird that I still get butterflies in my stomach when I think about labor? 95% of me can’t wait to have it done and over, with a warm little bundle in my arms. The other 5% keeps whispering, “I’m not ready to do this. Not yet.”
I seem to be having less contractions rather than more as the days and hours tick by, and I can’t remember if that means anything. Is it the calm before the storm, or a sign that I still have a while to wait? My next prenatal checkup is Monday. Will I make it to my appointment, or will I have my traditional weekend delivery? Or will I go all the way to next weekend?
I seem to be getting more and more absent-minded, or distracted, or whatever euphemistic description helps to excuse the string of dumb things I’ve done lately. I’m also getting tired of hearing how funny it is that my belly jiggles like Santa’s every time I laugh. It’s not funny anymore, so they’re seeing the jiggle less and less. No, I’m not getting irritable. Why do you ask?
For those who have inquired, I do plan to labor and deliver in the water again, if it works out. Our new house has an enclosed porch that should be perfect, providing a good level of privacy both from the neighbors and from the rest of our own house, with a bathroom very close. As you may remember, Parker arrived dramatically and a little unexpectedly while I was out of the water, but I don’t have any reason to expect a replay of that particular scene.
I also plan to post updates throughout labor, and hope Perry will continue to post updates when I’m past caring. I’m wondering: do you have any preference as to whether we publish a new post for each update, or simply edit and add to a single post throughout the labor? Speak now or forever hold your peace.
I have one last request. [Does it sound like I’m about to die when I say that?] Birth stories. I love them! Would you share links to your own or to other favorites? I’ll try to restrain myself from reading them until I’m in labor, because for some weird reason I find it comforting and distracting (in a good way) to read birth stories. But…can we skip the horror stories? If you had incoordinate contractions, a 4 hour pushing stage and third degree tears because your baby was born face-first with both arms over his head, or an emergency that ended in unplanned c-section or tragedy, during labor might not be the best time for me to read about it.